Monthly Archives: March 2014

42 Days!!!!

I just looked at my calendar and realized how many days it has been since I have drank. 

I can’t freaking believe it!!! 

I feel so freaking WONDERFUL! This was such a great life choice!!

There has been 1,000 times less negativity in my life since I have quit drinking! I have experienced some rough situations, but rather than drink away my pain and negative feelings… I have had to deal with this situations head on. It has proved to be such a learning and growing experience. 

Of course I am still learning and I am still adjusting…

So I have found it to be more uncomfortable for me being at house parties and not drinking rather than at bars… isn’t that weird?

I am not saying that it’s necessarily hard or that I don’t want to experience it… It’s just very different. 

It’s going to take some time to get used to this and it may be on the difficult side sometimes, but I know that I can do it! 🙂 

“You will come to know that what appears today to be a sacrifice will prove instead to be the greatest investment that you will ever make.”


Music that has inspired me as of late

Fight the good fight every moment
Every minute every day
Fight the good fight every moment
It’s your only way

All your life you’ve been waiting for your chance
Where you’ll fit into the plan
But you’re the master of your own destiny
So give and take the best that you can

You think that a little more money can buy your soul some rest
You better think something else instead
You’re so afraid of being honest with yourself
You’d better take a look inside your head

Nothing is easy, nothing good is free
But I can tell you where to start
Take a look inside your heart
There’s an answer in your heart

I feel it more and more every day!

I feel it more and more every day!

Saint Patrick’s Day Weekend

I spent Saturday, March 15th in the wonderful city of Chicago.

The Saint Patrick’s Day festivities were booming.

My girlfriend and I had an 18th floor hotel room over looking the river in downtown Chicago… How amazing.

Her friend joined us Friday evening, bringing along a bottle of vodka to drink before the morning parade and bar hopping all day. 

All of this the day before one month of sobriety… talk about a test!!

This was my first experience with being around friends pre-gaming while I have quit drinking. I didn’t know what to do while the girls were taking shots… but I managed just fine.  

It was pretty cold Saturday. We walked and walked to get to the parade and then missed it. We then walked for probably another hour and a half trying to find the best bar to go to. Finally, we found one and stood in a line that looked like it was going to take two hours to get through.

It took only about 30 minutes… but still… All of this to not drink… and to top it off, there was a $10 cover charge.

We get into the massively packed bar and there are no tables or chairs. Lets add on to the misery of the day.

At this point it would have been fabulous to have a drink. Even just a sip of beer… But I didn’t.

I had so much strength. I kept reminding myself of the way I treated others when drinking and how it would later make me feel.

Never again. 

I wasn’t having fun but then I realized that this is the new lifestyle that I have chosen so I can either be miserable or I can try to enjoy the situation – regardless of the odd circumstances.

Am I going to not enjoy myself in Chicago on St. Patty’s weekend just because I’m not drinking?! HELL NO!!!

So I changed my attitude… continued to watch everyone else get drunk… and still ended up having a good time.  


36 Days Strong

“When confronted with a challenge, the committed heart will search for a solution. The undecided heart searches for an escape.”

It’s a great pleasure in life; doing what others think you can not do.

It’s so easy to get caught up in your everyday doings and… really… not realize what you are actually doing.

Since I have not been drinking, I have found that I really enjoy going to bars with my friends.

To be honest, I always dreaded it whenever I was going to the bars and drinking. I did not have fun. I always had negative thoughts running through my head such as “I don’t want to see these people,” “When are we going to do something else,” or “Everyone is so annoying!”

I continued to go to bars, however, because that’s what all of my friends do. I had the choice to either sit at home on the weekend or to go to the bars where all of my friends were. Never once did I think that I could go and not drink. I thought that drinking made it a more tolerable experience… when really… it was doing the opposite.

Since I haven’t been drinking, I have had a blast going out with my friends. And my friends have pointed out that they see a huge difference in my behavior and attitude. They now tell me that they always thought that I was mad/upset/not having a good time. I often times would sit there and not say much, looking unhappy….


A month ago, when I told people that I was done drinking, it seemed as if most people thought that it would be short lived. Drinking is basically what everyone my age and in my friend group does in my town.

Also, many people asked why don’t I just limit myself to a few drinks… but I had already tried that… too many times… I had never been able to figure out this whole “control” thing.

But now I have. My “control” is to not drink at all.

I am having MORE fun than when I was drinking. And I love this feeling of control. I love the feeling that I can always take care of my friends when they have had too much to drink. Also, I feel more confident. In these past few weeks, I have had so many men approach me at bars trying to get to know me and get my number.

New Life Step

  • Quit Drinking Alcohol
  • Date: February 16th
  • Why: I am mean. I hurt the people that I love the most. I am NOT at all myself. I’m not nice and I am not fun to be around.
  • Desired outcome/ After Effects: Save money, lose weight, better health, be myself all of the time, never hurting the people that I care about the most, always be a safe ride ~ I know that way too often my friends think that they can drive when they shouldn’t, be a happier person, not ruin relationships.
  • What I have experienced so far:
    Clearer skin
    Increased mental clarity/ More positive outlook to life
    Better mood in general
    Not negative/ grouchy
    More focus on school and work
    Don’t feel as if I’m living in a haze
    I’ve saved so much money
    Major increase in self esteem
    I’ve lost 10 pounds